I am a 44-year old who is a wife and a mother. My husband and I have been married 20 years and he's my biggest supporter. My daughter is 16 and is amazing - our relationship couldn't be any better. I'm just feeling a bit lost is all. I'm one of those people who is always doing something and going somewhere. I am an Independent Sales Rep for a national jewelry company and I'm also an actress. I have an amazing life but am always looking to do and feel more. Sometimes I feel guilty about that. Do I really have the right to want more? Most people would look at my life as the most wonderful thing they could ever experience and don't get me wrong, so do I. It's just that I get bored easily and move on to the next thing. I'm good at a lot of things and I like that but I'm having trouble finding the next thing. My acting is something I just love and would like to keep doing - I just want to get bigger roles and something nationally televised. I know that's a lot to ask for but that's what I want. I have done many things in my life so far:
I worked at a radio advertising company, was a leasing agent at an apartment complex, was a sales rep for a temporary help service, worked in maintenance sales for a landscape company.
Co-Authored a book with my Mom entitled "The Demented Divorcee Cookbook" - we were on the Maury Povich Show 13 years ago with it! It was a huge accomplishment.
Started a hand-painted glassware company "Kiss My Glass" and a beading business with my sister, "Beads By Babes".
I helped my husband start his book distribution company and was the part-time bookkeeper.
I was President of the PTO at my daughter's school for 2 years and turned the entire thing around so it could run properly. I'm still very involved to this day.
I'm an actress. I love saying that. I'm an actress. I have 3 agents and go on auditions and actually book jobs. It's so bizarre because it's something I have always wanted to do and am actually doing it well. I'd like to book bigger jobs but I've only been at it for a year. That's the thing, I'm just starting out in the acting business at 44! That's a lot of what I want to blog about - going to auditions and what it's like being the oldest one there or being the "real" person there. What I mean by "real" is that I'm no model. I stand 5'1" and weigh around 133 pounds. To most people, I am petite but not to me. I used to think that way but not anymore. Early Menopause helped with that - ugh! My body has changed and so has my willpower. It's also changing my frame of mind. I'm not the same person I was before. Everyone who knows me thinks I have it all together. I have it pretty together but then again, NOT. I'm struggling to find myself again. I'm alone a lot of the time during the week while my husband is at work and my daughter is at school. I used to love being alone but I'm having trouble with it lately. I feel guilty if I'm not doing something productive. My husband tells me to just enjoy myself - sit and read a book during the day - that's hard for me to do. And my daughter is now driving herself to and from school and everywhere else. I love that I don't have to drive her all over the place but it's weird. She and I are very close but she's getting more independent and I'm having trouble adjusting to that. She's my only. I'm working on a lot at once, I know. I just wanted to babble this being my first blog.
